Life in all its fulness

What if we just weren’t made for these things?

A question that has been haunting me one way or another for a long time received some kind of an answer in an article in The Guardian Magazine on Saturday 20 September 2025. The article, by Alex Curmi, a psychiatrist and psychotherapist, was titled “What if we just weren’t made for these things?

I have great difficulty knowing and trusting what the point of being an active, committed Christian is nowadays (apart from being an irritant, pursued by God, keen on writing and posting blogs). Forty years ago the question didn’t arise. Being a Christian priest then was obviously a wise, fulfilling, vocational, fundamental of my life. God, trusted to be some kind of reality somewhere with very specific qualities and identities, was also open to be questioned, change, development according to radical new ideas in theology and liturgical performance and texts. God was open-minded about gay clergy and women priests. We, modern committed Christians, were wiser about the complexity of the Biblical text when and where and by whom the books of the Bible were (and weren’t) written. We knew about textual criticism, how the books had been edited and assembled, not necessarily in date order, we knew about Qumran and the Dead Sea scrolls – and evolution as a fundamental reality.

Alex Curmi’s article reminded me of the things I’ve become more conscious of in the last forty years, a more detailed awareness of the evolution of the human species and of ‘society’. Curmi gave a simplified timeline:

  • human genetics and anatomy have remained largely unchanged for about 100,000 years

  • For the next 90,000 years we lived as nomadic hunter/gatherers in tribes

  • About 10,000 years ago an agricultural economy began to develop; settlements formed

  • 5,000 years ago civilisations began to form, independently in five geographical centres. The Hebrew journey of faith began in this period.

  • Christianity was formed 2,000 years ago.

Explorers, archaeologists and historians provide us with an increasingly detailed and still expanding knowledge of the many eras of civilisation that have evolved, succeeded and failed over this 5,000 year period. My awareness of the landscape of history and of my Christian faith has been transformed, raising the question for me: “Why do I still believe, and what is it I really believe – about God? The is partly a question of age: eighty, 45 as a priest. But there is more to it than that. Life itself has become far more complex that it was when I was a child, more unsettled, more fragile, more demanding. Human societies and cultures are clearly regressing to a more decadent state in parallel with our evolving scientific discoveries and inventions. Societies are electing or being subjected to tyrannical, emotionally immature, authoritarian leaders. Combine the fragile state of national and global leaders and institutions with the fragility and uncertainty about our capacity to respond effectively to the climate crisis and it’s no surprise that people feel insecure and uncertain about the security of our lives on the planet as well as about our personal faith when we are witnessing extremes of human aggression, destruction, murder and we are haunted by physical and emotional neuroses, addictions, diagnoses and syndromes. Curmi says there is a powerful explanation for many of these manifestations – the world has developed in ways our biology hasn’t been able to keep up with. My body knows this.

A visit to Foyles bookshop

Last week I had time to kill in the West End and wandered into Foyles and started browsing among the categories of human spiritual, emotional and psychological health and well-being, religions, Bibles, Church history, theology, Islam, Buddhism, philosophy, mythology, esoteric studies, the occult, mindfulness, astrology, ethics, epistemology, psychoanalysis, new personal development, self-development, self-help, spiritual guidance and relationships. I took photos of each pair of bookcases – 30 photos of two or sometimes three bookcases, about 70 in all, 1 metre wide by 2 metres high, seven shelves in each, maybe 40 books per shelf, 20,000 books in total, so many books, so much space occupied in Foyles, so many people reading these books. Maybe all these books, all these subject categories are responding to people’s physical, emotional, spiritual and religious anxieties and their search for understanding and reassurance, to find answers to the questions and experiences that haunt us.

Back to Alex Curmi – and obesity

Curmi says the contemporary human habitat isn’t the one we were made for, have evolved to live successfully within. Obesity, previously rare, has now overtaken malnutrition as the leading public health issue relating to diet in many parts of the world. He says the realm of dating and mating has also changed beyond all recognition. The process of finding a mate, a partner, has often become protracted and overwhelming:

“a phase of life characterised by choice paralysis, hurtful behaviour such as ghosting, and the constant anxiety that our true soulmate is just a swipe away.”

“Rising rates of depression and other mental health problems can also be viewed through the lens of mismatch. Many of us are living a life disconnected from others, lacking in fulfilling work and devoid of meaning.”

“Low mood is not the misfiring of a broken brain but a signal that we might be missing out on important aspects of human experience.”

“Reports are emerging that chatbots can fuel the delusions and paranoid thinking of people vulnerable to psychosis.”

Previous eras and generations may have been fortunate enough to live in communities rich with tradition, ritual and meaning. I understand why among my friends are those who continue to be deeply attached to their particular Christian traditions and practices. The traditions don’t particularly work for me any longer.

Curmi suggests that “understanding the life evolution designed for us allows us to look at our problems with more clarity and self-compassion, and can nudge us towards better, more informed decisions.” “Some solutions are straightforward, like keeping junk food out of the house, deleting social media apps or limiting screen time.”

“Community, collaborative problem-solving, ritual and meaning are vital ingredients for a satisfying life and will remain so. Thinking about how to building these into our lives so that they’re part of its fabric, rather than optional extras, is a potentially life-changing exercise.”

I think the Holy Spirit is working extra hard in my life at the moment, because a day after reading Alex Curmi’s article, I read on p10 of Ken Leech’s book a quotation from Eric Hobsbawn dated 11th July 1988:

“Britain after Thatcher will be a scene of destruction. Those who need to rebuild what has to be reconstructed – not necessarily in the same way as before – need a preliminary survey of the bomb damage . . . Answers to particular questions are given by most reports but nobody has sketched the general picture.”

John Major, the next Prime Minister, restored in a dull, grey way, some stability and Tony Blair’s New Labour restored some excitement, progress and creativity, but global events and regressions have halted progress towards reconstruction and are presenting us with a new, worse question. If Trump hasn’t destroyed too much of Western culture and society beyond repair, will we have the people to sketch the picture of repair we are going to need?

My understanding of the experiences I’m having as I visit church buildings and congregations in the Stepney area of London Diocese is that much Christian teaching, life and worship is being corrupted by the Trumpian revolution and the ways in which modern life is making us sick, identified by Alex Curmi. I am more convinced than ever that the Church of England is being corrupted by the multiple failures to engage with changing cultures, beliefs and practices and is already in a position where recovering a healthy spiritual and religious culture is going to be almost impossibly challenging. The good news is that I continue to meet individuals and churches where the congregations and their lives of worship and Christian witness and practice continue to display signs of health that respond to the question “What if we just weren’t made for these things?” These individuals and churches can lead people more deeply into the quality of “life in all its fulness.”

Mapping the primary activities of today’s Church of England

Mapping the primary activities of today’s Church of England

I would like to be part of a Church that is evolving spiritually, theologically and culturally, intentionally responding to the movements of our time: the climate crisis, poverty, war, abuse, the transformation of the place of minorities and those against whom prejudice is expressed. I would like a Church that is growing, maturing, overcoming prejudice, committed to radical new Christian inclusion more than it is committed to growth in numbers and income – AND is committing resources to this ambitious Christian vision.

The desolation of the Church of England

The desolation of the Church of England

In the period of my lifetime, I have witnessed a movement in church and society from reliance on interior to exterior authority. This movement has happened because of changes that have taken place that have increased human anxiety and insecurity at the same time as we have become more scientific, more aware, more person-centred, more able, potentially, to diagnose and heal physical and emotional disturbances to our bodies and psyches. Externalised authority and awareness has become dominant in the Christian Church today over and against our internal intuition and wisdom.

Introducing the team for Life in all its Fullness

Life in all its fulness

St Andrews Church, London, SE1 8LJ

Saturday 2nd March 2024

10.00 to 16.00

A gathering for progressive, inclusive, catholic, evangelical, contemplative, holistic, hopeful, maybe-Christians seeking transformation and justice within God’s unconditional, infinite, intimate love. It will be a mainly Christian gathering of mainly Anglican people from all walks of life. So far as is possible it will be a dogma- and discrimination- free zone exploring healthy living and spiritual life focused on love, goodness, wisdom, compassion, truth and justice

Six of us will be resourcing the day: Revd Dr Tina Beardsley, Revd Colin Coward, Rev David Page, Revd Dr John Seymour, Professor Helen King and Revd Robert Thompson.

Five of us met in September in a London garden for a conversation about what we believe. We are all advocates for justice in the Church - equality regardless of gender, sexuality, race or ability.

  • We will begin the day by reprising our garden conversation – do we share the same convictions about the essence of God?

  • We will spend time in small groups where our own stories and experience can be shared, leading into a plenary session to gather our wisdom and develop a shared narrative

  • Our focus will be on the seamless unity of love and goodness within the universe, in creation, evolution and human experience

Introducing ourselves

I asked the other five members of the group resourcing the conference to write a brief autobiography by way of introducing themselves to you. You will find them below. But first, some personal reflections.

 I have known Tina for nearly fifty years since we were ordinands together at Westcott House, Cambridge. David I have known since 1991 when we were both members of the newly formed Southwark Diocese Lesbian and Gay Support Network. John I first met in the early days of Changing Attitude when he was a member of the Bristol group. My friendship with Helen and Robert is more recent, dating from the Living in Love and Faith era. All of them embody Christian faith and vision in ways that inspire me. They give themselves, body and mind, heart and soul, to their Christian faith in ways that have turned their own lives upside-down and are turning the world of the Church of England upside-down.

Robert has inherited a church building turned upside-down by his predecessor, Andrew Foreshew-Cain and is turning parts of the Diocese of London upside-down. He is committed to a Lent fund-raising walking programme that is exhausting to read about. Helen has developed the ViaMedia blog founded by Jayne Ozanne into a vital tool of knowledge and wisdom drawing on a multitude of contributors. She is also heavily involved as an Oxford Synod member and both she and Robert are members of General Synod. Tina’s life journey has been transformative, both for herself and for those who have travelled with her. Her courage, her experience of parish ministry and hospital chaplaincy, her contribution to writing about and communicating the experience of trans people, all are remarkable. Tina balances my avant-garde spirituality with a deep commitment to and knowledge of the catholic mystical tradition. John’s evolution from hospital doctor through curacy, school chaplaincy, and theological college to parish priest in a London suburban parish combined with his intellectual depth gives him a range of coal-face experience that is tackling the challenges facing the Church of England in the most practical ways possible – bringing coherence and new life to a parish. John also remembers the things I forget! David is married to Howard, both are ordained. David with a PTO, represents for me all that should be totally normal and uncontroversial about being a happily married clergy couple. That’s what their life together in Winchelsea is like, Winchelsea being about as far as it’s possible to get from the episcopal oversight of Chichester. David has proved to be an evangelical bedrock of faith and wisdom for me for over thirty years.

Profiles of the Changing Attitude England team

Christina (Tina) Beardsley has served in parishes, and in healthcare chaplaincy where she began to write and teach about practical theology. Her earlier doctoral research was about the Victorian Romantic preacher, FW Robertson, who abandoned biblical literalism for a generous Liberal Anglicanism – the tensions we’re addressing in this conference are not new! Tina attended dance and movement classes for two decades as a way of addressing her gender identity, and embodiment in prayer has been a longstanding interest. Tina has co-authored/edited a trilogy of books about trans people in the life of the Church, the latest being Trans Affirming Churches: How to Celebrate Gender-Variant People and Their Loved Ones (2020).

Colin Coward founded Changing Attitude in 1995 following a career in architecture prior to being encouraged to offer himself for ministry by the combined efforts of the Basingstoke Team Ministry, building on foundations laid by Southwark Diocese’s South Bank Religion. His work for justice and equality for LGBTQIA+ people was recognised in 2014 when awarded an MBE. The work of Changing Attitude expanded following the 1998 Lambeth Conference. Groups were established in Kenya, Nigeria, Australia, New Zealand, Scotland, Ireland and Wales. Colin continues to be involved with justice for gay men in many African countries. Having retired in 2015 he resumed campaigning activities in 2017, expanding them to include the transformation of Christian attitudes that create an environment of theological naivety and prejudice on the basis of gender, sexuality and race.

Helen King is a member of General Synod where she is vice-chair of the Gender & Sexuality Group. She is Professor Emerita in Classical Studies at The Open University and writes on the history of medicine and the body. She grew up in an evangelical church experiencing charismatic revival, and since then has mostly worshipped wherever her parish church was, although with spells in more Anglo-Catholic environments. She is an authorised lay preacher in Oxford diocese and has led house groups. She sees inclusion as a single agenda based on love. A member of the Movement for the Ordination of Women and currently a trustee of Women and The Church (WATCH), she took part in the Diocesan Shared Conversations and was then invited to be one of the larger team working on the resources for Living in Love and Faith. Since 2015 she has blogged on https://shared-conversations.com/.

David Page was born and raised in the West Midlands, brought up as an Anglican, drifting away from the church in his teens He studied History at university and embarked upon a teaching career. All this was thrown up in the air when he fell in love with Howard and got involved in the charismatic renewal movement through Fountain Trust. David trained for ministry at St John’s College, Nottingham and ministered in three evangelical parishes in Southwark Diocese. In the ‘90s he became part of the steering group for the diocesan LGBT support network and, when Changing Attitude was formed, served as the first chair. David and Howard now live in Winchelsea in East Sussex where they organise the local NGS garden openings. David still engages in some Sunday ministry in country parishes round about and recently served two terms as Winchelsea’s mayor.

John Seymour felt a life-long call to work for other's wholeness leading him through a wide variety of roles and experiences. Originally a hospital doctor, his conversion to Christianity drew him to live as part of a lay community at St Paul's Cathedral and then to train for ordained ministry. Following a curacy in the East End of London, John worked as a school chaplain in Ealing for eight years, pioneering a Christian approach to education drawing on classical Greek, early Christian and liberation movement methods. He taught mission and contextual theology at St Augustine's College of theology for two years and is now guiding the renewal of a parish that had been stuck in a destructive cycle of internal conflict, applying family systems theory. John led the strategy to amalgamate Changing Attitude and LGCM and was responsible for the launch of OneBodyOneFaith. His work in education resulted in his doctoral thesis offering a Christian theology of education in a Critical Realist framework.

Robert Thompson is at present the Vicar of St Mary's Kilburn and St James', West Hampstead where he is also the chair of the Sherriff Centre, a community project based at St James' church. Robert is at present also a member of General Synod of the Church of England. In this context he has been an advocate of LGBTQIA+ affirmation and inclusion as well as for those who have suffered from abuse in Church of England communities. For most of his ministry Robert has worked as a Healthcare Chaplain in the NHS. He has also served as a Labour Councillor in the Royal Borough of Kensington and Chelsea and chaired the Grenfell Recovery Scrutiny Committee.

Changing Attitude England’s event at St Andrew’s Short Street, Waterloo next Saturday could not be more timely. Tickets are still available. Please join us. We need a day of reflection and new vision more than ever.

https://www.ticketsource.co.uk/changing-attitude-england/life-in-all-its-fullness/e-zmqolb

Living in Love and Faith - a Church in crisis

Living in Love and Faith - a Church in crisis

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Freeing the Church of England from Mental Slavery

Freeing the Church of England from Mental Slavery

The Church of England is having the greatest difficulty catching up with attitudes to the role of women and the place of LGBTQIA+ and black and brown people in Christianity, and to attitudes to belief in God, to a transformation from belief in God as a person or being, an entity, to an equally ancient spiritual tradition of God as Mystery, as the essence of life and energy, of primary human values and experience that lay the foundations of love, truth, goodness, health, wisdom and justice.

Living as if . . .

Living as if . . .

One morning, forty-five years ago, kneeling in silence, I decided to take a risk – to live more fully “as if” my understanding of God was true, to live into a faith that I knew about experientially but that my cognitive self wasn’t convinced by. I decided to live “as if” the vision of God and the teachings and practice of Jesus that I had been ordained to teach and proclaim really were true and effective in people’s lives.

The difference between the unconditionally loving God of Jesus and today’s abusive, unhealthy omni-God

The difference between the unconditionally loving God of Jesus and today’s abusive, unhealthy omni-God

We are all infected to some degree by what is, in Trump language, a fake God, and as with Trump’s followers who are totally seduced by his manipulative oratory, many millions elsewhere have great difficulty telling the difference between the fake Omni-God and the true unconditionally loving God.

Healthy contemporary evolutionary Christian vision, theology and practice

Healthy contemporary evolutionary Christian vision, theology and practice

What are the elements of a Christian community, cell, gathering or congregation needed to create a seamless, healthy, spiritual, deeply relational, visionary, Christ-like movement? What does life in all its fullness look like and how do we assemble a model of Christian life and theology based on this, working to achieve this?